New Bike

Buying a new dirt bike tomorrow. My buddy Eli is going to buy me a $3000 dirt bike. It's gonna be freakin' sweet ass, a KTM 450 EXC.

I had a pretty bad day at work today. Lot of shit going on. However, I was impressed with my demeanor, because I didn't let a damn bit of it get to me. Always kept a smile on my face. Pretty awesome if you ask me, because I think a lot of people would have buckled under the pressure. I guess that's the sign that I was born to lead. I'm the type of guy that leads by example. I'm not a great speech-type motivator; just a "nothing gets me down" type of leader.

Dream two nights ago:
I wanted to write about it yesterday, but I didn't have time.

Preface: I had a fiance about 1.5 yrs ago. I'm no longer in love with her, but I think we all always have a special place in our hearts for those types of loves. We broke it off for reasons that were justifiable.

Anyway, dream started with me walking in a downtown area alone. Walking up and down the street. I walked by an arcade area, where there were quite a few people. I noticed some girls, but didn't really pay them much notice, trying to be suave I suppose. Walked to the end of the street, and decided to turn around and see the whole scene again. Once I got to the arcade area again, I happened to glance in the direction of the two girls that I noticed earlier. Took them in for a second, and continued to walk. After I got about 10 steps passed them, I was processing their images in my mind to determine if they were familiar to me, and realized that one of them was Marion, my ex-fiance. Right as I came to the realization, I turned around, just in time to see her jumping towards me. She fell right into my arms, and tackled me to the ground. She was sitting on top of me, looking into my eyes with her big brown beautiful peepers, and I said, "I've missed you SO much baby!" And that's exactly how I felt throughout my body. Well, about that time I woke up. I was like "Shit, I haven't thought about her for about 2 weeks." We proceeded to give each other of the deepest kisses that I've ever had. We told each other that we missed each other immensely, and that we loved one another still, after all this time.

Then, it got weird, because she got up and sort of followed the group that she was with. I followed them too. It almost seemed that she was WITH one of the guys in the group. We followed as a group for awhile. The situation became more and more like we were not getting back together. Our sudden burst of excitement was gone and reality, and all of the love, and shit, and bad feelings came rushing back. The group ended up leaving together, and I was stuck on a bus trying to get back to where I'd come from. I made it back, and then it was time to wake up. I actually woke up at that point.

I'm not sure where this dream came from, but I do know that I still miss that girl. I still wonder how things would have been if we had stayed together. I don't think about her as much as I used to anymore. I think the focus has turned from Jennifer, and my mind is just wandering.


I hope my bike is sweet. I'm actually thinking that I might make $1500 off of selling it. We'll see.

Tonight I'm thinking of you Marion! I hope everything is going well for you. I'm sorry that I treated you like shit. Maybe one day, you will forgive me.

I haven't spoken to her in 1.5 yrs. Whenever I hear "Two Years This Month" by The Good Life, I always think that I'm going to call her in December this year, and all of our problems are going to be forgotten and we are going to start fresh, and be happy together, forever. You know, like it should be. I know that's not true now.

Anyway, need to go to bed. Have a good night!

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